Me against the world.

This week, being the last week for me as a career woman before I embark on another more fulfilling (assuming people are not lying to me!) 'career', has me walking around in a zen-like state. I brush aside every little irritating bits of the working life that I had endured for the past few years, thinking.. "This will be over soon". Ok, not for long cos maternity leave is for 3 months, not 3 years, but its better then nothing at all, right?

Anyways, I've been pretty happy this week.
Until someone ruined it all for me.
Expletives are at the tip of my tongue, but I will try my very best to let it stay just there.

Well. I am sick of your The World is Against Me attitude.
EVERYTHING and EVERYONE is out to get you.
What the hell is wrong with you?
After so many years, I still couldnt figure it out.
Where did we go wrong with you?
I used to think it was just a phase, and I believe there was a period of time I was as rebellious and as full as anger as you, but never to this extent.
In your head, We hate you. We ostracise you. We ignore you. We don't care about you. We are out to get you.
So, who stood up for you when you were about to be shipped to a girl's home?
Who bought you all the pink ripcurl items that you wanted so much for your birthday?
Who brought you to see a counsellor so that we can try to understand what is it that you needed from us?
Who brought you to watch movies and eat at fine restaurants when you are having your holidays?
Who topped up your prepaid when it went low?

Your dear friends? Think again.

So, now. You are grown up.
And do not need us. Yeah rite.
Now you all 'big' and ready to fly.
Now that we have no more right to say anything at all when you do something wrong.
Now that we should just shut up when we see something's not right.
Well, you are grown up. You think.

People have told me numerous time, not to care.
Not to bother.
I tried.
It's your life anyway.
Maybe I should stop caring, like what some of the rest are doing.
Maybe I should just wait for the moment to smile and say, " I told you so".
But I care too much. Hah! I think that's one the occupational hazard for being a teacher.
Caring too much and wanting to right the wrong.
Whatever lah eh.

For the record, I think PDAs are fine.
But to a certain extent.
Everyne kisses, and I'm not going to act all high and mighty and say you shouldn't
What I don't agree to is SHOWING of to the world what you do.
It's thrashy.
I really do not need to see both of you salivating over each other.

But whatever lah.
Dah besar kan?

It was gatherings galore last week.
Started smack in the middle of the week where me and hubby went to Bugis to meet my side of the family.
My favourite girls!
Poor Shahreil, whenever it's cousins gathering, he will find himself to be the ONLY guy around or the ONLY guy ABOVE 21 years old. Heheheh..
That's my family for you... too many girls.
SO, the both of us plus Ikin, Nadia, Yani and Adik had a ball of a time eating and eating and eating and of cos...some harmless bitching. Shahreil always act as though he hates us being makcik2 kepos...but I know that he loves it too!

On Friday, it was HIS side of the family.
ANOTHER makan session at Lau Pa Sat.

Saturday was the Durian Party held at Siddiq's house.
Syiokkkk!! And Sid can cook quite well. I love his nasi goreng, which was exactly cooked exactly the way I love it to be. Banyak banyak bawang and cili hiris...mixed vege, pedas! Wooohooo... A game of taboo made me laugh like mad. And the fact that we got to chill with a group of people thats fun, crazy and just plain silly... was super gerek.

Sunday, as usual.. was balik kampung day (meaning balik rumah Tampines)
This was the best balik kampung day in so many months.
Everyone was there.
We chat and chat and chat. Over junk food of coz.
ANd the big daddy was craving for some durians.
APa lagik! ANother durian fiesta ler..

MAnalah anak aku tak berat.
Apparently he's now 2.94kg.
Heheh.. As long as he's healthy.. it's ok I guess.
I'm super excited, but super terrified as well.
Everything's so new and I really do not know what to expect,
but I guess I'll just enjoy the whole experience huh?

Siapa MC angkat tangan..
ME!!! ME!! ME!!
Yabadabadoooooooooo...

My Weekend

Shahreil's on a boys' night out.
So, here I am all alone on a Saturday night.
But before you al start sending hate mails to my poor hubby, let me just clarify that it was me who actually persuaded him to go out for the BBQ.
I really didnt feel like mingling tonight. I just want to lie down sideways and rot infront of the tv.
And I'd feel bad if he has to waste his weekend like that, just because his ever ballooning wife is too lazy to go out.

I do appreciate nights like these.
He does his own things, and I do the same.
Most of the time I'd spend it pampering myself.
Starting with a good warm, bubbly bath followed by the sweet smelling lotion and a relaxing face mask.
SYiok kan?

I havent had a proper pampering for months now.
Spa is out of the question.
And I dont think I can even survive a facial as I cant lie down on my back more than 1 minute anymore.
And me, Im such a stressed out person that I need my near monthly retreat to the spa.
I hate not having my body massaged thoroughly.
My face feels horrible not being scrubbed and squeezed and steamed.
The only pamering I got now is my hair treatments.
Oklah tu kan.
Once I've given birth, I will have my revenge.
I will have my spa and facial sprees! Wooohoooo!

Anyways, congrats to my sisters.
Diyana for getting a job..like finally! Heheh
And Ikin for making the first and most crucial step in changing her destiny.

To someone dear to me,
It's your big day tomorrow.
I desperately wish I can be happy for you, but truth be told, I am not.
But I love and care for you and hope that all of us are wrong in our assessment of him.
And that he is the one and will treat you the way that you deserve to be treated.

The last 2 weeks have been pretty hectic.
Oral exams. I do enjoy listening to the kids blabbering about stuffs, its the dropping everything at work immediately after school to rush to the exam venue that I hate.
Simply because, work when left like that will only pile and pile and pile.
So yup, I've got 2 weeks worth of marking to catch up on. Siapa nak tolong, angkat tangan!

To make things worse, Im now moving very sloooooooowly.
The little one inside me is growing and growing.
Apparently, he's already 2.5kg now.
Patutlah aku dah start jalan macam kura-kura tak makan sebulan.
It takes me forever to walk from Bukit Gombak MRT to block 532, you know.
Sabar jelah..lagik sebulan.

I really can't wait to have him in my arms.
But at the same time, I believe that I will miss having him in me.
(yelah tu... padahal madang komplen aja!)
I have been spending whatever free time I have staring at my stomach to watch him move.
It's really quite fascinating.

Im pretty nervous right now.
I feel like Im not prepared AT ALL.
Hopefully, once I've started my maternity leave..I will have time to do the necessary preparations.
Right now, every time I reach home from work, all I want to do is lie down.
PENAT tak leh handle ah.
It's like, I go on and on and on at work like a robot..
And once I stop, all the tiredness that I've accumulated throughout the day just hit me.

But it's Thursday.
One more day to survive before its the weekends.
Hope this weekend will be like last weekend.
Spent 2 days with Shahreil's buddies.
Laughter galore. I was laughing so hard, I seriously thought I was going into labour!

Enough babbling.
Kaki dah semut-semut..

I am sickly today.
I hate feeling as lethargic as this.
Suma tak kena.
Badan lemah jer.