I am so super duper busy that I ended up not doing anything.
Arghh!!
Must prioritise.. Must prioritise..Must prioritise (spellcheck??)
It's not helping that I am infront of the PC.
That I have Babe, Fuzz and Ida surrounding me.. ever ready to chit chat. (not that Im complaining, guys!)
That I have Shahreil on MSN.
That I have blogs to read.
Blog to update.
And the list goes on and on...
All of which are definitely more interesting than the work that I have to really complete!
Help me!

It hurts. It hurts. It hurts.
But I can't say that I don't deserve it.

I'm going around with a smile on my face. I laugh when expected to.
But in reality all I want to do is curl up and cry.
But I can't say that I don't deserve it.

Another year passed.
Another year older.
Gosh! Still can’t believe I’m this old.
When I look at the candles on the birthday cakes, I went like, Damn! That’s a LOT of candles!

Talking about cakes, this year’s birthday was like cakes galore!
1st cake was the one at Kak Mars and Bomi’s house.
While playing taboo, the room went pitch black @ midnight and there came the cake.
Hehehhe… Best!
2nd cake was from Lin and Mankey.
We had our usual double date with our favouritest double date couple. Tgh syiok berdangdut, Shahreil asked me to go to the toilet with him. And I thought, Eh eh.. Kedinya tunang aku ni, gi toilet pon nak kena teman???
Rupa-rupanya Lin & Mank wanted to surprise me. SO sweeeeeetttt.
Last, was of course, the traditional family celebration. Ni kira wajib lah. Dah tak surprise lagik. But I still look forward to those every single year.

In all, another pleasant birthday.
Started out horrible. Due to my own stupidity, I must admit.
I’ve never felt so horrible before.
My heart was in so much pain, I wished that I could change it to something more physical. But, that would have been a very silly and immature thing to do.
I am sorry. You know who you are, and you know what I did.
I am sorry.

But, things got better.
Thank you to those who remembered my birthday.
From my family, family-to-be, cousins, cousins-to-be, aunties and uncles, friends, colleagues, and even my dear students!.
From Singapore, from Buru, from Tanjung Balai, from Johor, from KL.
Those smses made me smile throughout the day.
Thank you all.

And a very special thanks to my other half.
This time, next year, I will be celebrating my birthday as your wife.
Insyallah.

We finally bought the mattress.
With mummy-in-law's help, of course.
We were too clueless, as usual.
We have never bought any mattresses.
I didnt know what to look out for, whats the price range like, yada yada yada.
But now it's finally done.
It's not like the ones used in Ritz Carlton, which I learnt yesterday, cost more that 6K.
But it's nice and plush enough for me.
One thing off the things-to-do-to-get-married list.
10 001 more things to do.

Well, random pics of what I have been up to during the hols.

Lately I've been thinking about Buru a lot.
Ok ok.. I think about Buru almost all the time..
Tapi yang ni lain sikit somehow.
I dunno how to explain also.

I kept thinkng about all the good times we had over there.
Especially those when we were much younger.
In my teens. Macam best gitu.

I remember the time when we refused to follow the family to go Selat Mendaun(?). Some other island around there.
We stayed at Bonda's house, doing I dunno what also.
Bila dah petang, perut lapar... and we didnt have any money to buy food.
All of us.. me and sisters n our konco-koncos.. trooped to rumah Nek Peah.
Konon nak makan lah..but obviously they all went to Selat Mendaun as well.
Door was locked.
We got Diyana, who I believe was about 12 years old(?) and Budi to panjat the tingkap which we managed to pry open.
They were supposed to climb in and open the door for us.
But guess what??
Those two went to the kitchen and ate first!!!!
Yang bodoh ni kat luar tunggu punya tunggu punya tunggu..
And bila kita masuk, makanan tinggal sikit. Not enough for the whole bunch of us.
Citot nyer Diyana n Budi!

We went back rumah Bonda.
Kebulur ni.
Then came ur 2 heroes.
Abg Ulin n Abg Chan.. Hehehhe..
They brought nasi n lauk from rumah Nek Yang.
They masakkan air teh.
They hidangkan for us makanan. Sendukkan nasi.
I remember thinking... Wahhhhh... Best nyer ada abang....

Or the times when kecoh pasal hantu yang suka alih2 orang masa tido.
So there was this trip where we actually tied our hands together when we went to bed, thinking that if the hantu was to alih one of us..it has to carry the rest as well! Pandai kan.. Hahahahha..

Or the time where me, Ikin and Abg Khairil were left to walk from Teluk Dalam all the way to rumah Nek Peah.
It was terrifying, I tell you.
Imagine walking malam2 buta, without street lights... dikelilingi hutan belantara, and passing through kuburs.
I still can't believe we survived that.

I miss going to the warong ice kacang manned by Mas Joko.
Ganteng banget deh tu anak!

I miss berkemban2 and mandi sama2 kat perigi Tok Busu because we were all afraid that some Fatimah Rocker will peep at us since the toilet tak ada atap.

I miss walking around the kampung and getting stopped by everyone who said exactly the same thing every time.. " Weii!! Miker nak ke mana tu? Singgah sini dulu!"

I remember the time where we were all dating kat bawah pokok depan rumah Pak Leman.
And Budi came running to us saying that Kak Ana was walking towards our direction.... and gedebab gedebub suma lari lintang pukang! Kental betol ah! Buat apa nak takut sangat ngan budak pembawak gosip tu?
There was also a time kita dok berdating depan rumah Cik Haris... and yg couple lain suma bual pelan2.. yelah, romantik lah konon.. whereas Diyana and siapa eh.. Sudir(???) bual ...mak oiii...kuatnyer!!! Suma boleh dgr! They totally ruined the romantic atmosphere cos we all ended up eavesdropping and laughing at them!

Those were the days.
Benda-benda macam tu dah tak akan berulang lagik dah.
Suma dah besar.
Dah matured lah konon.
Most of the time, our geng pun tak ada.
Kamal, Firman and Belli @ Pekan Baru doing their diploma.
Budi sibuk memanjang ke laut.
Jack, Jeri, Mail suma dah sibuk ngan keje masing-masing.
Abang Ulin. The best abang in the world, pon dah bertahun tak nampak! Belayar tak abis2!
Tinggal si Dayat jer..
*sigh*

I wish I can turn back time and do it all over again. Mesti best.

It's Monday!
Meaning, lagi seminggu sekolah dah start.
What a dread. *sigh*


Tapi takpe, tu semua jangan dipikir dulu.
Must enjoy what's left of the holiday and look forward to September break.

Yesterday was a totally busy Sunday for me and Shahreil.
Pagi2 buta dah ke Pasir Ris untuk Firdaus nyer wedding.
Then back to my house where we watched Pocong 2.
Not bad lah. I hate rape scenes thou. Traumatizing.


Then off we go to Pasir Ris again to fetch Shahreil's gay partner, Shahrul.
Dia dah ada dalam kereta, bising sikit.
Menyenyeh tak abis-abis. Tapi oklah, tak terasa sangat perjalanan ke Bukit Batok.

Was looking forward to go Azwan's engagement party as I knew makanan mesti best-best.
Selalu beraya kat rumah dia dapat makan best. Heheh..
Met Lin and Mankey there, then all of us squeezed into the car to go KK.



Farah ada baby lagik.
Wahhhhh.. best kan!!
So cute... But I was too scared to hold the baby.
I was looking at Farah n Man's kids.
3 boys. Mak oiiiii...
Pening kepala.
Cute memang cute, but I dont think terlarat aku nak jaga.
Kalau 3 girls takpe gak.
3 boys + Shahreil (yang perangai macam bebudak jugak)... ARGHHHH!!!!
Hellpppppp!!!


Lepas tu pegi NUH, tgk kawan Shahrul.
Kekek ah mamat ni.
Runaway patient. hehehhe...


Lepas tu, balik Tampines.
Ya Allah, punya jauh perjalanan.
Terasa macam nak pegi KL.
Kesian Anang kena drive.
Yang lain mula2 mulut tak berhenti berbual, tapi lama2 semua senyap je...
Dah penat pun bukan tau nak balik tau, masih lagik nak pegi COURTS.
Konon-konon nak beli katil pengantin.
Yeah rite.
Last-last si Shahreil n Mankey started looking for THEIR sofa bed.
The one that will be in OUR house, in OUR entertainment room where THEY can play THEIR video games while ME n LIN will be in the KITCHEN being the perfect wives, baking cookies for them!!! Weiiii... Jangan nak berangan ah! Lu dua orang rilek sua!
Heheheheh..

At home, Diyana wanted to continue our Heroes marathon.
Tak boleh ah..
Tak leh angkat lagi mata..
Kita sambung malam ni k??

I am in school.
Supposedly to do some work.
But when I finally am here.
I have no idea what to do.
Ok lah.. Bedek.
I know what to do, but I dont know where to start.
After nearly 2 weeks of doing nothing, getting back to work is like.... Urgh.
Bak kata org tua-tua.. dah naik lemak.



What have i been up to?
Nothing much.
I've been reading and reading and reading.
Its super heavenly.
Thanks to Ikin who shares my passion for books. She actually went to the library and borrowed tonnes of books. Syiok!



And I have been having movie marathons.
The dvd rental shop has been making more money thanks to me.
Mostly citer antu.
And my favourite is Zombie Kampung Pisang.
Hilarious.

I've watched it like more than 6 times in less than a week.


Been doing some shopping for the wedding.
Nak kata best, stress... Nak kata stress, best..
I think I've overdosed on diamond rings..
I've been to all the jewellery shops in Singapore.
Just to find that one ring.
Im a bit fickle-minded ah.
Kejap nak yang macam ni..kejap nak yang macam tu.
And the ones that had me go OOOHhhhhhh... were mostly beyond budget.
Tapi muka seposen jer..tetap nak try.
Elehh..sekali sekala dapat merasa pakai cincin berbelas ribu.. kan best.
But finally!!!
I made my choice.
Simple but elegant.
Love it!
Terima kasih sayangkuz.

I bought him his first barang hantaran!
It's the Seiko watch that he has been eyeing for months!
And what a deal we've got!
After walking all around Singapore (again!).. we finally got it at the cheapest rate possible.
I believe we saved around $200.
Tak sia-sia kakiku sakit2 keliling Singapura.

So, both of us went back grinning from ear to ear.
Heheh.. mentel juwel!

So, the holiday so far so good...
Cuma ralat sikit tk dapat pegi holiday.
Tapi takpe, Shahreil promised that the will give me a better holiday in November.
Hehheheh..
That, I cant wait.