Highs of the day:

a) Shahreil sent me to work.
b) Afiq 3NA gave me the Nasi Briyani that he cooked in Homec class. (and it tasted good too!)
c) Fuzzley 'visited' us just now. I didnt realise I missed him this much. My cute cheeky little br0ther! He looked more like a student, now that he's in NTU.
d) Seeing my ex-kids who came back to get their O Level results. My! How they've grown.
e) Seeing the kids getting the marks that they deserved.. Izuan, Haikal, Zul. Congrats boys! Your hard work paid off!

Lows of the day:
a) Seeing so may kids and teachers crying. How can I be happy when they are sad.
b) Seeing my best buddy in school 'bullied' by that tyrant. ARGHHHHHH!!!! Im so pissed!
c) Seeing so many of my peers leaving as their passion have been killed by the bloody system.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

10 Things I Hate About You - Heath Ledger Singing

I fell for Heath Ledger after I watched 10 Things I Hate About You. And I've never grown tired of this particular scene. I can't believe he has passed away. At such a young age. So sad.

I've decided to be a little kinder to myself.
I started with a little pampering at Pro Trim, right after work.
I feel better already.

And of course, coming home and into the arms of a loving husband.
That helps a lot more.
I can't stop thinking, he's such a wonderful man. And he's mine. Wow.

He always know how to make me feel better.

Thank you, love.

I've been so miserable lately that I fail to see how lucky I am actually.

Allah has been kind to let me have 'night' sickness.
It would have been terrible if I keep getting sick in the morning cos I need all my energy for work.
I'm also surrounded by people who love and care about me.
A husband who still finds me sexy with the ever bulging tummy. Who still wanna kiss me right after I've puked. Who'd tuck me into bed and rub my back till I fall asleep. Who is strong, reliable and help to keep my spirits up during this difficult time.
A mother who quietly slipped a Mothers-to-Be pamphlet into my bag.
A mother-in-law who ensures that I eat well everyday.
Siblings who pamper me. (susah dapat tu!)
Friends at work who brings me healthy breakfast from home, help me carry heavy stuffs, give me advice on pregnancy, stop me whenever I run around the school.
Shahreil's friends who try not to smoke near me though I know that must be hard for them.

So, what am I complaining about. What an idiot!
Anyways. I felt suprisingly fine yesterday. Hope all the puking sessions have finally come to an end.

What else?
Oh. Read on Perezhilton that Steven Sabados and Chris Hyndman of Designer Guys are gay partners. For over 20 YEARS! DEVASTATING. Shahreil had a ball of a time saying I TOLD YOU SO! DAMN!

*urgh*

I am not feeling too swell right now.
The wanting to puke feeling sickens me all the time.
I have pimples (and I thought pregnant women are supposed to GLOW!)
I am always clueless as to whether I'm feeling sick cos I'm too hungry or I'm too full (how is THAT possible??)
I will vomit if I overeat and I will vomit if I undereat. What the hell.
I hate the weight gain. I have no more clothes. I look ugly in all clothes. I feel fat all the time.
I hate the travelling to and fro.
I miss my family so much I end up not calling them lest I cry.
I just want to sleep and sleep and sleep that I'm afraid that Im turning into such a bore for my husband.

Allah, give me strength please.

Silence

There's so many things going on in my life, but somehow I did not feel like talking about them at all. I hope that explains why I've not been updating lately.

And I still don't feel like talking.