All this talk abt getting engaged and subsequently, married..is making me terrified.
It's not that I DON't want to get married..hell, I've been thinking and dreaming about it for 6 years already.. but when it's really HERE.. I'm bloody terrified.
Whenever I think about it, I get this weird feeling in my stomach.
Why am I feeling this way?
I want to have babies.
I look at all infants/toddlers and start to yearn for one.
I want to be with Shahreil day in day out and grow old with him.
I still want to grow old with him.

Then why am i dreading this??