As Promised..

Here's the list of reflections that I promised, in case somebody thinks that I'm bedek-ing.

Let's start with the most boring part,
(1) WORK-WISE:
Hmmm.. I think I did quite well this year. I was heaped with lots and lots and lots of tasks which looked really daunting and scary to me. Things like organising school assembly programmes (2 of them!), ML Week, being i/c of this.. i/c of that..things that I initially thought I couldn't handle at all. But suprise, suprise.. I managed to handle those tasks pretty well and I'm totally proud of myself. I guess it's true..nobody really enters a job and immediately become an expert, you have to learn on the job and this year I did a lot of learning. I mean A LOT.

Areas of Improvement: I need to sign up for more courses (I think I was way short of the 100hr requirement this year. hehehhe..) and I'm definitely going for the work attachment thingy next year.

(2) RELATIONSHIP:
I don't know if my partner will agree to this, but I feel that this has been quite a rough year for us. Firstly, there were 2 rather serious break-ups and I'll take full responsibility for both of them. I really thought I had lost him during those 2 times, but I'm glad that here we are, stronger than ever. Second, I guess the fact that we have been in this limbo state for like way too long that I/we(?) began to get restless. I was so tired of being in a rship that doesnt seem to have any direction at all. But now we do. ;-P

I'm also quite pleased to note that we argue much lesser now. (agree?) For instance, previously..when we argue (over the phone), we'll slammed down the phone and then start hurling accusations and hurtful smses to one another. Its usually never-ending cos we'll feel hurt and we'll want to hurt the oter party even more by sending more hurtful smses. We just didn't want to lose. Now, we still slam down the phone and send 1 or 2 smses but thats it. We'll then cool down and then apologise and it's ok.

And after so many years, I began to learn that him being angry at me or scolding me or hurting me with words doesnt mean that he doesn't love me. I learn that he usually says mean things when he's angry but he doesnt mean it. He IS mean when he is pissed off. He ever called me a thick princess-thinking skull and that hurt like hell. But things like that don't bother me much anymore.

Gosh! I did learn a lot after nearly 7 years.

Areas of Improvement: Smile sweetly when he says that he's going to Alif. ;-P

(3) MONEY-WISE:
I haven't been saving as much as I'm supposed to simply because I couldnt see any reason to. I scrimp and save and in the end I had to take a huge portion out to lend this person and that person. Imagine the heartache when I had to take out 2K, and nope, I'm not even going to start thinking that I'm ever going to get that money back. But now, at least I have a purpose in saving. I have to save money for the wedding, and for a house. So, NOW, I WILL save.

Areas of Improvement: No more lending.

(4) Others:

Somewhere in the middle of the year, I agreed to sponsor my relative's education back in Indonesia. He's my second cousin (grandmommas are sisters, mothers are cousins). He was about to enrol to a uni in Pekan Baru when the person who has been sponsoring his education all this while decided to stop the funding. He was totally devastated and I really didn't want him to stop schooling because of that. It's very rare for people in that island to go that far in education. Most of them only finish secondary school. I thought Kamal (that's his name) has the drive and the potential to go further and it's a pity if he quit halfway cos of money. And it's not even much money. 50 bucks per mth to cover his fees, rent and daily expenses. And I'm not asking for anything in return, I'd be happy to see Kamal hold that cert someday. And hopefully he'll manage to help raise his family's standard of living somehow.

So, i guess.. I did quite ok this year huh. Hope next year will be better. I'll start thinking of my new year resolutions.