I miss him. Does he miss me too?

All this talk abt getting engaged and subsequently, married..is making me terrified.
It's not that I DON't want to get married..hell, I've been thinking and dreaming about it for 6 years already.. but when it's really HERE.. I'm bloody terrified.
Whenever I think about it, I get this weird feeling in my stomach.
Why am I feeling this way?
I want to have babies.
I look at all infants/toddlers and start to yearn for one.
I want to be with Shahreil day in day out and grow old with him.
I still want to grow old with him.

Then why am i dreading this??

Dwibahasa

Marking compo can be really fun. Especially when you come across such phrases:

a) jika tuan di dalam kasut saya
b) pada tangan yang sebelah
c) terbalikkan daun yang baru
d) tunggu untuk aku
e) tingkap-tingkap 2000 (my favourite!)


SO, guess what they were trying to say..

a) If you are in my shoes
b) On the other hand
c) Turn over a new leaf
d) wait for me
e) windows 2000

I didn't know whether to cry or to laugh.
Well,I did laugh first actually..
I laughed and laughed and laughed..
And turned to my colleague and told her about it..
And we laughed and laughed and laughed.

Who ever said that marking compos is boring, is so wrong.

Quite true...In fact, VERY true.

You Are Likely a First Born

At your darkest moments, you feel guilty. At work and school, you do best when you're researching. When you love someone, you tend to agree with them often. In friendship, you are considerate and compromising. Your ideal careers are: business, research, counseling, promotion, and speaking. You will leave your mark on the world with discoveries, new information, and teaching people to dream.

The Birth Order Predictor

I came across this silly website with equally silly quizzes and games.

Tried this Birth Order Predictor where you have to answer several questions before they try to guess which child are you..first, second, third..bla..bla..bla..

So, I they did get mine correct. First born.

Quite amazing.

Life has its ups and downs..Mostly downs actually

I hate being betrayed by people whom I thought were my friends.
A wake up call for me.
There are no real friends in the workplace.

And I hate being the walking atm machine at home.
At this rate I will NEVER have enough money to get married.
So people at home, stop pestering me to get married.

But it's ok.
All these have made me a stronger person, I hope.
And I always tell myself..
Sesungguhnya aku berpuasa..

Marhaban Ya Marhaban

2nd day of Ramadhan.
I love the atmosphere at home.
As usual, we have our dinner on the floor instead of the dining table.

Amira thought that we cannot break wind during puasa. So, for the whole day yesterday, she tahan-ed kentut. Can you believe that?! Hahahha...how cute.

I miss Shahreil. During buka, I always think about him. I don't know why. The same sad feeling when he was in NS during the fasting months. Silly, I know. He's been out for a year already. But the sad feeling remains. I still start wondering whether he's having good food. Of coz he is! He's at home, and his mom is an excellent cook.

Less than 5 minutes ago, I found out that this guy whom I had a crush on way back during JC, is married with a 5 month old child.
I don't know why I'm even writing this down.
I guess it came as a shocker.
In my mind, he's still the good-looking, 18 year old soccer captain from YJC. heheheh..
But fast forward that to 2005.. he's actually someone's hubby and someone's daddy.

I'm old.

It's that time of the month. Again.
The cramps have not kicked in yet. But the mood swings are here.
I feel like snapping at everyone around me.
Poor people.
So, to get rid of all the bad vibes around me, I'm goin to clean up my room.
When everything is in order...I'll feel much much better. I hope.

I think my biological clock is ticking.. whatever that means.
I wan to have babies.. Hahha..dont laugh..
I really do.
It's weird really.
Only last year, i remember talking to Tetty about getting married and stuffs.
She told me that she wanted to get married cos she wanted to have a baby.
And i was like...huh?
ME.. I wanted to get married cos the idea of finding mak andams..hantarans..cincin..and all sounds so exciting.
But look at just how 1 year has changed me.
I want to have a baby of my own.
This sounds crazy, but every time i look at a pregnant woman, I'll be so envious of her.
Worse still if i see couples with their little tots.

I think I'm going crazy.
Hahahah..