April Update

I really thought that with the carnival being over, my life will return to some sort of normalcy. That it's not going to be that crazy anymore, or rather, I will not be so crazy anymore. Salah! Salah! Salah!

Anyway, I wish that I have more time on my hands.

Other than to complete my daily tasks, I need time for my son, for my husband, for my Tampinesians, for myself(!), for my house.

Like today, since I'm on childcare leave, I have a whole lot of things that I want to do.

1) bring Ryan jalan-jalan.

2) bring Ryan to my tok ne's house. (ohhh.. how I miss my grandma!)

3) bring Ryan to ibu's house (and I miss my ayah so bad! sorry ibu, not that I don't miss you, but I did see you yesterday. ;-))

4) clean up my house (neverending. though I do enjoy housework)

5) cook nice food for Shahreil

6) complete my marking ( i was ambitious and brought 7 piles home!)

7) complete setting my sec 4NA mid-year paper

See! It's options, options, options on a daily basis.

What's more important? My house/family/work?

I remember reading this, "Working mothers always feel like they leave work too early and reach home too late". True. I feel that all the time. Like I'm the lousiest worker for leaving work way too early, yet the lousiest mother for reaching home too late. WTH.

The whole work-life balance concept, I still need to master.

Hadirlah Mustika - Spin

I couldn't believe my eyes when I received the news that Achik Spin passed away due to a car crash yesterday. And somehow, despite the fact that I did not know him personally nor was I a fanatic fan of his, I am deeply saddened.

I think that with his passing, it just reminded me of how short and unpredictable life is. We can be gone just like that. Pooff! And us, living in this hectic and crazy world might have been taking someone for granted, thinking that they will be around forever. Our parents, our spouse, our children our friends...

And I hate it when young lives are taken away just like that, leaving behind young children. Achik's child is around Ryan's age, if I'm not wrong. How sad..

Anyways, I grew up listening to his songs. At a time where I was a teenager and all cintan cintun songs were still so meaningful, Spin's songs were among the best, especially those with Siti Nordiana. And the song above remains one of my favourites. It's fast, it catchy and I loved asking Shahreil to sing it during our karaoke sessions.

That's all, folks. Treasure your loved ones as long as we still have the chance.

Over and out

One huge burden off my shoulder.
Let's let out a loooong sigh now...
*pheeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwwwwwww*

It was 2 whole hectic weeks! CRAZY!
I think everyone @ work were so stressed and tired and cranky that we ended up complaining about our kids and wanting to quit. On Thursday alone, I heard 3 of my friends saying that maybe this job isn't really what they wanted.

But it was really horrible, I tell you.
On top of the normal lessons (and I have to remind you that an hour's worth of lesson requires a few hours worth of preparation that includes planning/creating of ppt/designing of worksheets and printing), the usual disciplinary problems that we have to handle and our own class' stalls (even though it's supposed to be run by students, it's the teachers that ended up running around in circles) we each have some duty or another for the carnival. Horrible horrible horrible.
So many tasks and so little time. Every little break in between classes was spent preparing for the next lesson and by the time class ended at abt 3 or 4 pm, I'd be busy planning for my stalls and then for the show. Pecah kepala otak aku.

And then I'd have to rush home and it's work all over again at home. Urgh. I feel sick to the stomach thinking about that 2 weeks.

The only things I looked forward to were my son's smiles and hugs and my husband's scent. I dunno why but his scent has always been a calming element in my life.

And I guess I'm lucky to have such wonderful friends at work too.

I just want to shout:

I AM FREAKING GLAD THIS IS OVER!!

Btw, my class made $735 from our drinks & choc fondue stall and my show made $1.5k.
Not bad. ;-)
We did our part for charity, kiddos!