Today is not a good day. Mainly, cos its a Sunday and i hate sundays (unless of coz, the following monday is a holiday..) And tomorrow.. my 10 weeks of torture will begin. *sigh* JUs thinking of it rite now is making me have another bout of migrane.

Second, its a rainy day today..not that i hate rains..i love it most of the time, but somehow the rain seems to be getting on my nerves today and has successfully dampened my oredy not-so-good spirits. It was thus not a very brilliant idea when i went to the Mall just now, wanting to buy my markers, pens and bla..bla.. THe rain was REALLI heavy and that small and flimsy umbrella wasnt of much help.. i had this fear that it was going be blown away right in the middle of the road, leaving me red-faced and not to mention, drenched! At the same time, i was afraid that i'd slip and fall flat on my butt. SO i had to walk reaali ssss...ll...oooooooo...wwww.. (get my drift?) At that point of time, i tot, "it be nice to hv my bf to hang on to". but well... nvm..

Talking abt bf, he's really pissed at me when he saw my previous entry. its not as if i was trying to humiliate or anything..i just wrote what i felt. is that wrong? he always asked me to be more open, but when i'm open..he gets pissed off. i'm confused. neway, i really wanted to go out with him today..looks like there's no way thats going to happen. why? a) he's still asleep, by the time he wakes up..he'l hv to go watch the soccer match. b) he's way too pissed off
I think he doesnt understd why i want to go out with him today when obviously there's stiill tomorrow or day after tomorrow..and so on..and so on.. In addition to that, we did go out together a lot during the last few weeks. its just that..i dunno, i felt like i needed to see him b4 sch starts tomorrow...maybe take my mind off school for the time being.. you know..that kind of thing. Maybe i'm too dependent of him. Its like i need him. I'm i making sense to you? Maybe not..ok2...let me explain...

Lets say i'll have something that i need to attend to on Tuesday morning, i'll feel better if i know that I'll be meeting him on Tuesday afternoon thus I have something to look forward to and go through with whatever i ahve to go through with lesser dread. Or... if i dread Friday, then, the thought of meeting him on Thursday will sort of perk me up and i can shelve whateva i was dreading, for at least a while. Clingy? Yah...sounds like it to me too.. BUt i dunno, he's like sort of the provider of my strength. Ewwww..that sounds corny to me even..hahhaha... I dun mean to be clingy you know, but somehow it appears to be so.

Well, forget it...

Wanna know what i bought today? Pens, markers, highlighter, a U2 maroon-coloured shirt, a nice witch-like shoe, a pencil case. Popular was closed today. What the hell! Public holiday was YESTERDAY! HEllloooooo..... SOrt of felt that it was a wasted trip. I wanted to buy files and so on..but i guess, i have to do it tomorrow then..

Hope tomorrow is a better day.