I have no business blogging right now since work is piling and staring at me.
But..alah.....sikit jer..Boleh ah eh? kita rest kejaaaaap jer.

My workspace here is in a mess, and me gets easily agitated seeing such mess.
I simply can't work when my desk/class is messy.
Sebab tu lately Ive been cranky in my own house...Cos its like one whole big mess. Kata makcik2...macam kapal tongkang pecah.
But I've got little time to spare and really clean up the house (or even my own room!) The past few weekends have been busy busy busy... Macam menteri mana jer tau Yati..

We(the Anangs, Ikin, Shahrul) went surveying for wedding stuffs yesterday.
Quite fun. And suprisingly, Danny Hanafi gave us lots of useful tips. I half expected him to be one kekwat, hidung tinggi guy since he's used to having high end peeps as clients..and kita ni macam kucing2 kurang jer. But like people say... jangan menilai orag ikut suka hati kita jer..

And it was good that we had Ikin n Shahrul along.
Ikin, being my Ms Manager cum Wedding Planner cum Kad Sponsor cum Bossy Sister cum Slave... was of course well-prepared for everything. Dalam beg dia yang besau tu, ada street directory, ada majalahs pengantin, name-cards, planner, camera and bla bla bla... You name it, she has it. Shahrul of coz, gave us tips..this and that. Kalau nak harapkan the Anangs..tahun 2010 pun belum tentu wedding boleh siap. Hehehe.. We are too clueless.

Eh eh...dah pukul 2.30 eh? Dah boleh balik ni... Jeles kan? Awak awak yang keje opis mesti jeles kan???? Best jugak jadik cikgu eh... see you guys in red tonight.

Have you ever had so many things to do that you ended up not completing anything cos you really do not know which to do first and so you start to do something halfway and thought that maybe the other task is more important and then start to do it and then thought maybe not and start to do something else? That's happening to me right now. HELP!

A piece of good news for today.
My dear Hazlian will be getting engaged in March! Yeahhhh!! So happy for her n Latif.
Boleh kita shopping barang pengantin sama2 eh...
When I was in sec school.. selalu terpikir, siapa antara geng kitorang akan kawin dulu. I always tot it'd be Malah, then me, then yan, then adik then ajai. Tak tahu kenapa. Now I know that its Ajai, then Malah, then me, then Yan, then Adik.. Eeeeee.....dah tua kan kiter??? Hahahha... I can still remember us spending our afternoons rollerblading at that park when we were 14 years old.

7- Evie Tamala - Selamat Malam ( Indo )

Lagu yang teramat meleleh... Tapi was my favourite masa zaman2 muda remaja dulu. And i can't believe that I finally found it! Ahhhh!!! Sedih sey lagu..hahhaha

I just realised that watching sports..specifically soccer, provides another excuse for grown men to act downright childishly and hurl abuse at others. It was hilarious. Cured my stress right away.

And yeah...how I wish my kids are half as semangat when they sing the national anthem in school as these people did yesterday.

Im starting to panic about the wedding.
About money, about getting everything ready, about not having the perfect wedding.
Shahreil always tell me that I cant expect the perfect wedding.
But hell, I cant help it.
Since I was a kid Ive been dreaming about having one.
And what if its not what Ive always imagined it to be??
What if some people sibuk2 and spoil it for me??

And I just know that there will be a clash of opinions on how the wedding should be.
Why must I invite EVERYBODY in this world?? People who doesnt even know that I exist, that doesnt care that Im getting married, that will whine about having to sacrifice their Sunday to tunjuk muka, that only look forward to mengumpat about the majlis 10 thousand years after the event itself?? Why??

What if I cant afford the wedding?
What if I dont look nice during the wedding?
What if I am too busy to plan my wedding??
What if Im not ready to be a wife?
What if Im not ready to live at Shahreil's house?
What if? What if? What if?

And its not helping that lately, Ive been witnessing marriages crumbling down.
I really do not need those right now.
I do not need to see straying husbands.
Uncaring husbands.
Husbands, who, after 30 years of marriage, start to act like a pathetic jerk and proclaim to the wife that she doesnt make him horny anymore and thats the reason why he has a second wife at some faraway island.
J-E-R-K.
Are you trying to say that it is JUST sex??

So, you see..I have reasons for all the doubts.

What in the world am I doing blogging, when I should be marking.
Thats the disadvantage of having a laptop next to you when you are doing work.
Selalu kena distract.
But i guess, having read 6 karangans about Satria and Kembang Setangkai, I really need a break.

It's monday.
I hate mondays.
Its back to work.
But I feel quite good today cos Im wearing the new green top that I bought from Topshop. Cantik..

I just want to get over today and meet Shahreil.
The only thing I look forward to.
Please fast forward the time to 6 pm. Please.

I seem to enjoy being in my classes this year.
My 5NAs very studious (i guess the N level results sort of woke them up).
Without Hasib, Asraf n gang to disrupt the class, everthing's goin on very well.
The 4NAs never fail to make me laugh. (Gosh! i never knew anyone whose laughter is as infectious as Affandi's!)
The 3Ts n 4Ts are suprisingly well-behaved.
And my 2Es..well although budak2 ni mulut mcm jubor ayam, selamat cuma 6 org ajer dalam kelas.
So, yup...so far so good.

But I do miss those noisy kids of 2NAs n 3NAs..
They still come to my homeroom once in a while (ermmm..everyday actually) to chit chat and irritate the hell out of me again. Hahah..
And Hasib visited me when he came back to take his testimonials yesterday.
As merepek as ever. He's in Bishan ITE now.
Hopefully I'll see him in tv somewhere down the road.
For your info, he wants to be a singer.
Sebab tu everytime i scolded him for sleeping in class he'll say:
"Cikgu..saya nak jadi penyanyi.. Ni suma tak payah tahu lah.."
Selamat berjaya!

1) Thick princess thinking skull
2) Glamourous Bitch

My nightmares are back.
Mostly about school.
And students.
And chaotic classes.
I rarely have good night sleeps whenever its school term.
I wake up every hour to look at the clock.
I hate that.

Ikin! I need those chamomile pills!

My Monday lessons are finally over.
*phew*
5 straight periods which means 5 straight hours is definitely not easy.
Pandainya dorang buat timetable eh..

Im supposed to be marking now.
But hey! Let me rest first lah!
Penat tau.
And reading their Kosa Kata(s) really added to my headache.
I wish I'm at home.
In the air-con room.
On the bed.
With my bantal gentel.
I miss you bsntal gentel.

there goes my new year resolution.
im such a failure.

I hate it when this happens.
When I'm experiencing great Post-Buru Depression.
I think everyone in my family (except Ikin) is having them.
Symtoms include: can't stop talking about Buru, can't stop looking at Buru pics, can't stop sms-ing Buruans, can't stop planning when is the next trip.
Ayah best ah...lagi 3 hari dah nak pegi lagik. .. Amboi2..Cik Mamat..enjoy eh!!

Hari Raya Adidiladha this year was super gerek.
First time beraya kat kampung..ehh!! wait.. not really..
It's the 2nd time, tapi somehow I simply can't recall the previous one.
That was way back .. zaman2 before-Shahreil.

What's so great abut beraya @ kampung?
First.. the kekecohan ( biasalah..orang kampung nie kecoh semacam.. kadang2 macam bingit, tapi selalunya best)
Imagine..we cooked pakai kayu api dekat laman...
Mahathir tukang kipas api..
Yours truly tukang pegang torchlight and dok suluh rendang..
Walaupun asapnyer menyiksa mataku..tapi itu satu experience yang teramat wow!

AND... Cik Akob pasang lampu colok around the house.
I've always watched those things dalam drama-drama Malaysia..
Ni baru dapat tengok 'Live'.. and we had a great time main bunga api..
They also had people going around in a lorry laungkan takbir the whole night.. I think its called piawai or piagam?? or something lah... Bestnyer..!!!
Oh..i didn't follow...heheh...was busy nyanyi2 lagu raya at home.
And all of ayah's ABK (konco2) came over..
Kecohnyer rumah Nek Teh Merah malam tu..
And of course, ibu for the first time in my life tak stress masa malam raya. hahahah.. For this alone, i strongly advocate that we should do this EVERY Raya!

4 days macam kejap jer.
Yang lain seronok ah.., they were there for 9 DAYS!!! Damn!!!
Jeles aku.. Me, 4+3= 7..
Wahhh
lama gak eh..1 minggu
Record tu.

Balik lagik kecoh...
Plan nak naik kapal Mikonata.. tapi bila kapal sampai...MAKKKKK....penuh...
people we STANDING in the ferry.. at the sides of the ferry..ON TOP of the ferry..
I was so scared.. I kept telling my mum while we were trying to fight to get onto that overloaded ferry that we shouldnt ride this one.
It looked bloody suicidal... and the sky was very dark and ombak looked very threatening.
At last, kita tak jadik..
Cuma yang kecohnyer..Tok Aji n Cik Nah dah masuk dalam..and our luggage suma dah diangkut ke atas ferry..
And the ferry dah nak move off..
Kecoh-kecoh.....

It's weird that the relatives Im closest to are those that are miles away.
Yang kat singapore ni, setahun sekali pun susah nak jumpa.
And I feel kind of old when this time round, Firman brought his cewek, and Misah brought her cowok tu intro to us.
When in the world did they grow up!!!???
And Im getting married and have a family of my own.
Scary.

But Im looking forward to having my own house and inviting them to stay over. (despite whatever objections Shahreil has)
And I can imagine bringing my kids over there.
And they can enjoy playing with the sand like I did when I was young.
And have their first loves with someone over there like the ones before them had.
And the list is pretty long, I tell you:

Cik Wan + Cik Amat Balai (cik amat backed out cos he knows he couldnt afford to marry a Sporean)
Cik Jah + Cik Jamal (Cik Jah chose to follow her head n not her heart. Got married with Cik salleh. Never stepped on Buru anymore. Cik Jamal still not married yet)
Cik Awi + (i dunno the name)( nenek tak approve)
Kak Tuty + Cik Akob (same reason as cik amat)
Lin + Bambang (ni tak tau kisah)
Me + Abang Chan (ni tak yah story)
Ikin + Yusof (ikin ngengada sikit. si yusof tu hansem woooo)
Fatiah + Abang Ulin (fatiah masa tu belum pandai bercinta sgt.. hahah)
Diyana + Zaidi (who we happily called MUTU (muka tua)when he cruelly dumped her for Niar)
Abang Khairil + Dian (ok, this is not 1st lurp, tapi 1st scandalisma)

Semuanya sentuhan kecundang.
Tapi very wonderful experience.

I MISS BURU.
*sigh*

(Pics will be uploaded later)